I was in a violent relationship a long time ago. It was terrifying. My partner at the time would often overpower me, scare me, intimidate me. It was hell. He was stronger than me and I hated that. I despised the feeling of being overpowered, not being strong enough to fight back.
I only managed to get away by moving overseas. Thank god I did, i would have ended up in a very bad way had I not.
I didn’t realise for a long time after but it gave me a thirst for strength. I have a need to be able to stand up for myself, hold my own- both physically and mentally. It’s part of why I train.
I need training to help my mental resilience and I love feelingstrong. I love the feeling of picking up a heavy barbell and making it move the way I want it to. It doesn’t always go right but I feel strong. I feel like I can’t be overpowered easily now. I feel like I can stand up for myself, make shit happen, move things and hold my own.
Training like we do at Rebuild is so much more to me than just a place to sweat. It’s a place where I get to be me, but become a better me at the same time. It’s a place that makes my body and mind stronger.
It makes me happy; training is never a chore, it’s a delight. Find what makes you be the best version of you and puts a smile on your face, what makes you feel like a kick ass. And don’t take shit from little bitches. They’re not worth it.
